Tuesday, March 3, 2009

Pretty Much Sums It Up...




And I don't even like country......

Thursday, February 26, 2009

The Update on the Itch-Bay that hit me...

Sooo...

Today was a pretty awesome day. Ditched work... with my Boss. Had my Pinkberry fill... and saw Coraline finally. LOVED IT!!!

Everything was going smoothly... until i went home and saw my mail. There it was, sitting on the dining room table... a letter from HER insurance company.

What was inside this envelope, amazed me. Not a check as I was hoping... but this statement:

"Dear Miss Welch (yes, they spelled my last name wrong, prob for more insult)

We are sorry to inform you that we RESPECTIVELY decline the claim against you. We are able to prove 100% with our findings and investigation that you:

made an unsafe left turn." (I was found at fault.... how... i have no fecking clue!!)

Therefore, the bitch screwed me even more... oh and that's not the best part! The insured, wasn't her, or her father, or even had the same last name as her... meaning she was in fact NOT INSURED to drive the car that hit me.

Motherfecker!!!! I'm soooooooooo incredibly pissed right now. I'd do my usual and go cool off driving around... but hey.... I DON'T HAVE A CAR!!

ugh.

Guess I'll have to put that call into Judge Judy now...


Bitch going DOWWWWNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN!!!!


I'm getting a new car, and she's paying for it.

The end.

(oh nooo.... its only the beginning!)

Sunday, February 22, 2009

I used to be lovestruck, now im just fu--... ehh whatever.

I hate when you don't want to believe in something, and you fight so hard to persuade yourself to not open up, and not give into believeing it... the statement, or gesture or life you live because you think its to good to be true.


Just to find out... once you finally give in and believe, and love, and smile... and become one with that thing or person...



You should've listened to you're fucking gut instinct since the begining! I told you something wasnt right!


Come to find out....



He's beel lying to me the whole damn time. no wonder why he was so busy sometimes... he was living back in IN with his OTHER GIRLFRIEND.


ughhhh....


he has killed EVERY ounce of trust I had left in me.


I need to get drunk...


I need to forget him...


I need to stop crying and feeling shitty because of him!!!


I feel so dumb... soooooo dumb right now!


Fcuk you Jack Baker.


She can have you.


You dont deserve me anyways.



Thursday, February 19, 2009

The One Place That Feels Like HOME right now...


And

i still cant go due to my injuries.....

i fuck*n hate her even more now!

Someone take me there... i need the relaxation!

Tuesday, February 17, 2009

To: The B-Snatch Who Hit My Car

I HATE YOU.





I can't even imagine how you have the gaul to try and sue ME for damages to you're car!


You were denied the claim for my insurance to pay for your damages for a reason...


YOU RAN A RED LIGHT AND SLAMMED INTO ME!



It's not my fault my car is a tank and smashed you're new car's hood into you're dashboard.



You are at fault... The police say so... you're insurance says so! We had a witness see you slam into me!



ugh.



Poor girl. I feel sorry for you. Now you have made this all personal. I am now going to add on my medical bills which you hitting me incured. I will add on my time lost from work... and anything i can come up with now.



You should've just took the blame and paid me my $$...





We could've hugged it out...





but oh nooo....





not now, evil fiend.





Now... gimmie my money, biatch.





OH! and...




Ode to Recent Events

I've been doing a LOT of thinking lately.
Those who know me... know this probably isn't a good thing. (I think enough as it is already.)Anyways, i've decided to join the blogger community. To basically use this as a venting, slash, self-therapy. Believe me, I need it. 2009 hasn't really started off on the best note for me... I've been in a car accident, fell down stairs, broke up with my fiance, and a lott of other crap. Ugh. This is going to be a year of cynisism, i can FEEL it. Ha Ha. Mondays funeral got me thinking a lot about life, love, etc.

On Life: I'm content with it for the most part. I'm alive, and i think i'm a pretty good person. I put others before myself, even if they're mean to me. I have many friends, some i wish i were closer to, and some i could bare to lose. I know where i want to be in the future, i know now that i shouldn't be afraid to take those steps. I will be taking these steps to strive and cope and live to my fullest extent. I wanna live my life like there's no tomorrow. To not be afraid of living, loving, and achieving my goals.

On Love: I want to love someone unconditionally. (Pretty much everyone wants that.) I want to be able to not be afraid to open myself up completely, and show them all the great qualities i have. I want to break down the wall that makes my heart ice-cold. I'm afraid of being hurt, and used, and to that extent, i shut myself down. I make things up in my mind... like he's unfaithful, or lying to me, etc. Someway, i feel that will soften the blow when the inevitable happens. The break-up. I act like it'll happen any day, and i don't focus on the relationship. Well, Jack was the same way... I guess two people afraid of love, couldn't work it out even though they still love each other. I feel it was my fault. And from that relationship, i have learned many things. I'll try to just not be so afraid, and just... LOVE. No matter what type, or how it happens.


I will grow stronger....

I will live, and love, and take on what life gives me.